Thursday 28 July 2011

Ashes of Depravity

Rise...........

I will rise, change it slowly
Fight back, cheat reality
Resurrect whats forsaken
I stand, never beaten.

In the ashes of depravity
(forever) lies my sanity
Holding on, through my struggle
Immortal, never forgotten.

Its black, desperate, desolate.....

I want you by my side
To get me through this night
In you, i still believe
You are my salvation.

The Other Woman

Kohl-lined eyes and a blue skirt
Sometimes even a dash of red,
And she was beautiful for one more night
Before the sun rose,torn, from her bed..

The mirror glared and the sunbeams scorned..
The skirt shed tears from where it hung,
The patches cried with heartbroken sobs..
The blue that had soothed, now stung..

She sat bare from dawn to dusk..
Having only void feelings to lend,
To the grieving dusk that wished
Only for a quick,painless end..

She lived in his pleasure of leisure
But perished when conscience begun..
The daily knocking on the door..
The door that his beloved did shun..

I stand in the doorway of solitude,
Like an untouched bottle of gin..
Lured in by the mirage of love..
Tumbling upon the sands of sin..

Trapped in what makes my heart beat..
I've embraced every thorn, spared none..
But while I am "the tragic hero"..
She remains.. "The Other Woman"..

Wednesday 27 July 2011

The Frozen Tree

Do look beyond the frozen tree
There's sunshine a little, I think..
Or maybe just broken glass
Smiling with every blink..

Do look beyond its ugly knots
The russet cracks and the scoops
There are treasured pains, Linking arms..
Bronzed in friendly loops..

Do look beyond its leafless shrug,
Its stare..
Its toothless grin..
There are unshed tears,
Resting in peace..
In the cradle of thoughtless sin..

Lovers robed in leaves of passion
Of Autumn frolics and fun..
Leaving behind forbidden love
Naked beneath the sun..

Pirates of the lonely coasts
Robbing the shelter of the tree -
Draped in hues of earthly pleasures
And the mystic lull of the sea..

Burnt, broken.. but still alive
With secrets buried deep -
It stays awake through endless dreams..
Just so, I can sleep..

Look beyond the frozen arms
Where I survive unseen..
A solitary bud in the crest of death,
A hope that keeps it green..

Sunday 24 July 2011

I Love You Her

Her...
One word that means so much to me.
A simple reaching from Her,a msg left,a txt and my heart soars.

I try not to say too often those four letters
that mean so much to many.
Not because i don't want do,
oh i do so very much.

I wish i could tell Her every day,
let Her see and feel just what she's
become to me.

But i cannot do this, i have my role,
i must protect our hearts, keep them 'so'
for they, in this life, are promised not to each other, but to others close.

Her, i just wanted, no...needed to tell you,
that even thought i cant, even though we can never be more,
even though i try so hard to keep us 'so'
on this journey,
it is not always easy to keep my heart from
bursting, not always easy to keep my
soul from soaring away.
For that is just what you do to me.

I love you Her,
No one knows how long this will last,
I hope and pray a long long time
for it nourishes all that i am.

You give me everything and so much more
than i ever dreamed off,
and you will forever, forever be lodged in my heart.

I love you Her,
I just need to tell you that.
Your,
Him

Friday 22 July 2011

I Miss You Her

Dear Her,

Where are you now?
What are you doing?
Who are you with?
What are you thinking?

God,i miss you,
always do,
some days far more than others.

Today i needed you,
but i know it can never be so,
we are not meant for one another,
we are entrusted to others close.

The times when we know
we would be good together,
can never be.

The times when we know
we should be together,
can never be.

Wherever you are,
whatever you're doing,
whoever you're with,
know i'm out there
somewhere,
thinking and dreaming of the
next time i can can hold your face
in my hands and look in your soul,
utter nothing,
but say so very much.

God, Her, I missed you today,
You are my all,
my soulmate, my everything.
Reach for me soon,
for your dreamer misses you..

I don’t know if you’re pushing me away or pulling me closer
I don’t know where I stand
I don’t know what you want from me
Or if you care at all

Your words lash out and hurt
Then lovingly draw me in
I don’t know what you want from me
Do you want this to end

Don’t turn tables
Or place this on me
Just come out and tell me
What it is you want

I can’t read minds
I don’t know where I stand
Are you pushing me away
Or are you going to finally let me in..

Yours,
Him

Snow.......


Snow and more snow. It was snow all around. No trees, no grass, no stones protruded from the vast expanse of snow that covered the ground like a thick white sheet.
A sudden surge of sadness swept over the heart of Tamang, the Sherpa. Often before that too, as he lay surrounded by snow and ice, he would become restless. His mind, like a bird would take flight into the realm of his memories. He would once again remember the Gandhak Valley, a long rift between two immense mountain ranges, its beautiful villages, nestling among hills, its lush green meadows, and the land where he had spent his youth, where he longed to be now.
Oh! Those were the blissful days. That was the period when all the snares and cares of life were still far away. Sometimes he saw the footprints of the Yeti on the snow and remembered how the superstitious hill-folk in the neighbourhood would quiver with fear when they saw them and chant “Om Mani Padme Hum”.
“Give me some water, Tamang”.
Startled out of his reverie, Tamang sat up. In an instant Gandhak Valley and all the images and its memories had conjured up were scattered as though by a violent storm, of remorse. Then Tamang cast a glance around the small tent which sheltered him. Near him, in the sleeping bag lay the “Big Sahib”, whom the mountaineers and the sherpas call the leader of the expedition.
“Sahib”, murmured Tamang but could say no more.
How could he explain to Sahib that there was no water, no tea, no coffee, nothing at all in the tent to quench their thirst. The stove which they used for cooking and had gone out of order the previous day. The only remedy open to them to slake their burning thirst lay in chewing bits of snow. Their throats had become swollen and sore on doing this again and again.
Sahib had been dying for a gulp of water the whole day without getting any drop of it. At times, he had begun to grumble something that the sherpa could not make out. Then he would begin to cry out in agony and become unconscious. Tamang was distraught with grief and worry. But he did not know what exactly he would do to alleviate the pain and suffering of his fellow companion. He sat still badly shaken by the desperate situation he was called upon to face. The only action his mind suggested him was frequently to pull aside the flap of the tent for a while and get a view of the frozen world outside.
A blizzard had been blowing for the last three days or so. Sahib was seriously ill and had been hovering between life and death for all these days. His feet were frost bitten. Gangrene had set in and the legs needed immediate amputation. Each part of his body shivered in pain. Tamang’s condition was in no way much better and less exposed to danger. Fatigue, hunger and icy blasts on the bleak hillside conspired to break both his bodily resistance and his spirits.
Four days earlier he had arrived at Camp III, after leaving the base camp. He was utterly exhausted. He had come up from an altitude of nineteen thousand feet to twenty five thousand feet in two days. Being the leader of the sherpas he had heard that a Sahib was very ill and braving the inclement weather he had continued with the ascent and was now with the Sahib.
The Sahib had clung to him like baby. He had repeatedly told him that he would never forget the services he had rendered him. For hours on end, Tamang massaged the Sahib’s arms and legs and nursed him. The Sahib’s eyes were full with tears of gratitude
As he was absorbed in thinking of his home, the Sahib called out to him and said, “Tamang, I am past hope. Leave me to God’s mercy and go, go save yourself”
But Tamang refused to listen to any such advice. Again and again he thought of his people back home. What would they say if they came to know that he had deserted the Sahib in that desolate place to save himself.  He would not accept the charge of treachery. Come what may he would remain with the Sahib.
Tamang slipped into unconsciousness. The intense cold had begun to affect him. In fear and agony, Sahib called out his name again and again but there was no response. Outside the tent the blizzard howled and shrieked. More and more snow piled up on the tent. The two mountaineers were buried in the snow.
No aid could arrive from the camps below because of the blizzard which showed no signs of abating for seemingly endless days. Some days after this, braving the greatest odds, two sahibs and a sherpa managed to reach the solitary tent in the frozen land. Inside the tent they came across a heart wrenching sight. Two human beings now changed to corpses lay in a tight macabre embrace.
Tamang’s lips were frozen as he lay beside the Sahib. His face, even in death was utterly serene…….

Monday 18 July 2011

Lyrics to a Song

Sometimes I wonder by the look in your eyes
When I'm standing beside you
There's a fever burning deep inside

Is there another in your memory
Do you think of that someone
When you hear that special melody?

I always stop and think of you especially
When the words of a love song
Touch the very heart of me

I often wonder how it could be you loving me
Two hearts in perfect harmony
I'll count the hours until that day
A rhapsody plays a melody for you and me

Until the moment that you give your love to me
You're the one I care for
The one that I would wait for

There'll be sad songs to make you cry
Love songs often do
They can touch the heart of someone new
Saying I love you...

Sunday 17 July 2011

The Perfect Man

The perfect man is gentle
Never cruel or mean
He has a beautiful smile
And keeps his face so clean.

The perfect man likes children
And will raise them by your side
He will be a good father
As well as a good husband to his bride.

The perfect man loves cooking
Cleaning and vacuuming too
He'll do anything in his power
To convey his feelings of love for you.

The perfect man is sweet
Writing poetry from your name
He's a best friend to your mother
And kisses away your pain.

He has never made you cry
Or hurt you In any way
Oh, screw this stupid poem
The perfect man is gay.

Thursday 7 July 2011

LiFe-Part II



1. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return.
But what is more painful is to love someone and never
find the courage to let that person know how you feel.

2. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who
means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was
never meant to be and you just have to let go.

3. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a
porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away
feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

4. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose
it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been
missing until it arrives.

5. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an
hour to like someone, and a day to love someone-but it
takes a lifetime to forget someone.

6. Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth,
even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you
smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day
seem bright.

7. Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go,
be what you want to be. Because you have only one life and
one chance to do all the things you want to do.

8. Always put yourself in the other's shoes. If you feel that it
hurts you, it probably hurts the person too.

9. A careless word may kindle strife. A cruel word may wreck
a life. A timely word may level stress. But a loving word may
heal and bless.

10. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best
of everything they just make the most of everything that comes
along their way.

11. Life begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, ends with
a tear. When you were born, you were crying and everyone
around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die,
you're the one smiling and everyone around you is crying.

Tuesday 5 July 2011

The Isolated Hand

She walked down the bucolic lane,
Searching for someone known
Amongst all the faces that
Appeared so familiar and amiable!
Widowed mother of a single son,
She awaited the day he would return
Little did she know, fate would afflict
and obsess her with decrepitude!

Enthralled in apprehended despondency,
Fatigued by cognizant strangers,
Unable to acquaint herself to this jinx,
She questioned the omnipotent "WHY"
The earth dint shake,
The heavens dint cry!

Lost was the prerogative of living,
Her crippled heart sought liberation
From her incapacitated bosom,
As she listlessly limped through
Her pupils blemished with pages from the past,
The sanctity when she saw him last!

Her tussle for existence has always been tough,
To the war of independence she lost her love!
Pristine and immaculate, her taintless feelings remained,
When she meditated to foster her child alone.

Walking along the devoid lane,
The one that led to the bridge
Over-looking the expressway,
She wished to abdicate her verve!
Prayed to her lord for one last time,
To aid her in the fall.
A distant clamor infiltrated her exsiccated ears,
Sounds of roaring engines,
Gun-fires and howls of men!
A long line of advancing trucks,
Caught her dissolving sight!

The war had ceased,
The exultant combatants were returning,
Families and friends awaited them
At the Central Alley of the township!
Like the aroma that spreads,
Every time the tear drops of heaven
Cuddle the withered soil,
A flicker of reverie emanated.
She headed for the gathering,
The images of her son,
Painted in her mind!